Last night was a night of wonderfully weird dreams. I had a dream about people telling me I shouldn't do it. It was SOO funny!! In my dream, Jay and I were sitting in a restaurant (??? i think...) and a bunch of people I grew up with who always made fun of me for being fat were there, too, and they were making comments about the surgery. And I turned to Jay and said (LOUDLY, of course, so everyone could hear me): "You know, it's wonderful that there is a surgery to help me with this… too bad there's not a surgery covered by insurance to help people not be so ugly!!!" Ha!
My other dream was about shopping with Kim Kardashian. ??? Who knows… but she told me once I lose weight, to come to her store and she’ll help me find the PERFECT clothes. I have no idea how this absurd idea got into my head…
Enough about the dreams… back to surgery. I've done my research. I am EDUCATED about the surgery. I know that bariatric surgery got a lot of negative publicity years ago because of complications, etc., but it has advanced SO MUCH. The risk of having gastric bypass now is the same as a woman giving birth to her first child.
I hear people say that they know people who’ve had the surgery that are “ugly” now. Well, hate to break it to ya, but this surgery doesn't make you pretty, it just helps you lose weight. DUH!! If you are ugly now, you were probably “less fortunate” (ugly) before. The surgery is a TOOL and if you don’t use the tool correctly (i.e. eating like you did BEFORE surgery), you’re not going to be successful and you’ll gain the weight back.
So I’m now on day 4 of the liver shrinking diet (or “LSD”) and I feel fantastic! It’s amazing how quickly my body has adjusted to eating less. Don’t get me wrong, I do get hungry between meals, but I can have sugar-free gelatin and sugar-free popsicles to curb the hunger. I was completely satisfied last evening after eating my turkey sandwich and cup of veggies. This will be the key to success: eating until satisfied – not FULL, but SATISFIED.
I’m getting more excited by the day. I know that as long as I follow the doctor’s orders, I will have wonderful success. If you push the limits, you will fail, so I’m going to try my best to not break the rules. There are things I will miss (Diet Coke, chocolate candy, ice cream, cheesecake) but these are the things that led me to a BMI of 44.5. I’m ready to LIVE MY LIFE the way God intended. I truly believe that this is God’s plan. He has already written my story, I’m just living it. I am truly blessed!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” –Jeremiah 29:11
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