Okay, here I am, 2 days after surgery updating my blog. I can't type worth a hoot for some reason (must be the pain meds), so please excuse any typos.
The day of surgery was hell. I'm not gonna lie or sugar-coat anything. Apparently I am extremely sensitve to anesthesia and pain meds because I could NOT keep my eyes open for more than 2 minutes. I was in recovery for several hours because my blood pressure was outrageously high and they couldn't get it stablized. I remember the nurse in recovery asking what my pain level was and I said "86". ?? Who knows... maybe I was stuck between 8 and 6. I moved to my room with a morphine pump... which just enabled me to be out of it even longer. There is a fair amount of pain on my left side mainly. But the meds do help it...
Yesterday started off with a trip to nuclear medicine for an upper GI. This was MISERABLE! First, they make you drink this nasty liquid so they can see how everything's moving around. The drinks made me incredibly nauseated. Also, I was still having trouble staying awake. This is when they determined that I am extremely sensitive to meds. So they took me off od the morphine pump and started giving me a liquid-form pain med. It was so gross... it made me ALMOST throw up. I was dry-heaving for about half an hour.
I finally got a patch to help with the nausea. It's a cute little silver patch behind my ear. I have no idea how long it lasts, but Dr. Jay told me to keep it on since I'm not having any nausea. Haha. It's my "bling" from the hospital.
Today was better in many respects, although I had several "bumps". The nurse removed my drainage tube - HOLY $#*%!!! THAT was very painful. I still have my oh-so-sexy fanny pack on with my On-Q pump; this will be removed when it's empty.
I WANT TO TAKE A SHOWER!! My hair is so greasy, you could probably fry an egg in it. (I know - that's gross but I felt y'all needed a visual.) I did eat a sugar-free Jell-o. It's amazing how bad they taste when you have to eat them so slowly. I've also been sipping on a 16.9 oz bottle of Dasani since the ride home... I'm only half way through it.
The ride home was bumpy and painful. I kept a pillow in my lap, but it didn't help much. Jay went through the Wendy's drive thru and bought french fries, a bacon cheeseburger, and a diet Coke. Is this his idea of cruel and unusual punishment?? Nah, it's okay. It did smell good, but I really didn't want to eat it and I know he hadn't eaten anything yet. I made him a pizza for dinner... which also smelled heavenly! Oh well... I keep telling myself that it will all be worth it in the end.
As I was sitting in the house alone when Jay went to pick up the baby, I realized that I am a little scared now. I've been fat my whole life. What if I can't do skinny? It will be SO STRANGE to not be the fatty. It was just a really weird feeling.
Well, here's to the beginning on my new body. I'm on liquids ONLY for 2 weeks. Please keep praying - this is gonna be a long, difficult road.
Oh Honey, next year this time, you will be one sexy chick. New clothes for Christmas, oh boy. This will be a dull memory and you will be so glad you did it. And the health benefit...we won't even go there. It will all be worth it. Just go one day at a time now. One day at a time and don't look back. Glad you are home and you are still in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteLiz-
ReplyDeleteYou always have been, and always will be, beautiful- no matter what body you're in, new or old.
You should be so proud of how far you've come, and be looking forward to all of the wonderful things the future has in store for you and your family. Although change is never easy, you have nothing to be afraid of. You are a strong and brave woman, and you can achieve anything. Although the next few months may seem like a long, daunting road right now, you WILL get through them- one day at a time. I have no doubt about that, and neither should you.
I will be keeping you in my prayers always. Take care & God bless.
PS: Plan a trip to Paris. Can't you just imagine yourself in your little black dress, posing with Jay for a picture in front of the Eiffel Tower? ... I mean, incentives can be a good thing, right? :)