Long overdue...

So, I was emailing Jay's cousin who has been an absolute blessing to me, both pre- and post-op, since she has gone through this, as well, and I realized that I should just steal (most of) my email to her and blog it since I really need(ed) to update.  (Sorry for the run-on...)

I bought some frozen fruit b/c I have really wanted a cold "shake"-type drink.  Any suggestions on what to mix it with?  I am afraid to use any type of juice b/c of all of the sugar in it.  I bought a mix of frozen berries and peaches.

I am having a hard time fighting "head hunger" lately.  Jay's work schedule has been all over the place and when I'm alone, I'm a total emotional eater.  I eat when I am bored... (must have been bored most of my life...)  I'm trying to make smart decisions, but sometimes I just want to eat something that I definitely should NOT be eating... (like a whole Butterfinger... which I haveN'T done, but, oh, how I have dreamt about it...)

I am down to 215-ish (my scale will give me a different reading each time I step on, so I average them...)  The CRAZY part is this: I am STILL considered OBESE!!!  WTH?!  I've lost almost 80 pounds in 5 months, almost 140 pounds in the past 18 months, and I'm STILL A FATTIE?  This makes me sad... and, honestly, a little pissed off angry.

A lot of people don't recognize me at first now, which is weird - and sometimes really nice if it's someone I WISH wouldn't recognize me.  I see a change but I don't think it's that much of a difference yet.  I do, however, see myself every day, which could be the problem.  I'm wearing some 14-16 shirts now and mostly 18 pants (though I do have a couple pair of 16s that I wear).

I have had a heck of a time getting the energy to exercise.  I don't know why, but I feel sooo tired all the time.  Wait... actually, I do know why: I have a toddler, a full-time job, AND MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS.  DUH! 

Favorite things to eat & drink right now:

Strawberries

Crystal Light Peach Tea

WATER

Salads

1/2 ham & cheese sandwich
1/2 homemade "hamburger", no bun (props to Meri Page for the recipe idea)

Foods I'm totally OVER:
CHICKEN (it's a love/hate relationship)
eggs
chili (I've been over this since about 2 weeks post-op... the thought of it makes me nauseous)

And... the things I'm craving:
Oreo cookie blizzard (probably never again...)
strawberry milkshake
Butterfinger(s)
Almonds - does anyone know WHEN or IF I can ever eat these again?  They are full of "good" fat...
CHEEEEEEESECAKE!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, y'all... I hope everyone that needs to lose is busy being a BIG LOSER!  :)  Love y'all!